Todays post was going to be something completely different to this, but I went to bed last night, really fucking angry.  So I stayed up and wrote an open letter to Guru Gossip, who, if you don't know, are basically a website/chatroom, who essentially bully content creators.  My advise would be to not visit these sites, because they are disgusting and are funded by visits.

Also, here are some photos of me in a coat, which I now feel are really unimportant, but Im annoyed and when i'm annoyed I cannot rest until I get a few things off of my chest!

Dear Guru Gossip and members,

This week, I read something so incredibly heartbreaking, a content creator, whom I have a great deal of adoration for, has been needlessly and endlessly attacked, by a group of people from your site.  Now, I don't know for sure, but after reading some of the abhorrent, heinous and malicious comments on Guru Gossip, I whole heartedly believe that these attacks have been perpetrated by some of your members and I for one, am appalled.

I really need to understand what it is that makes you perform such evil acts? Are you unhappy? Do you feel so much jealously boiling up inside of you that you have to cause pain in order to cure your self loathing? Because if this is the case, do you feel better yet? Have all of your dreams suddenly come true, simply by attempting to take away someone else's happiness? Do you suddenly have an amazing career, a wonderful family, all of the most beautiful belongings and a charming house? You don't? Oh.  

Tearing someone else down will not assist you in gaining all of those things, working hard and being a good person might do.  I hate to break it to you, but spreading so much hate wont improve your life.  Yes, temporarily, perhaps you'll feel just a little better and I'm sure that she, (who will not be named) will feel physically unwell with anxiety, she'll probably curl up in bed, sobbing, surrounded by people who love her, but feeling so utterly alone.  But none of that will last, her successes will not go away and she will continue to grow and grow and grow, until you cannot get to her anymore, then what will you do? 

So here I am, just a girl, standing in front of a group of trolls asking them to think, dear god, THINK, before you type that disgusting sentence! Think about how you would feel if thousands and thousands of evil comments were being written about you, how would you feel? Your one small comment might seem insignificant, like a drop in the ocean, but all of those tiny drops add up to a vast expanse of poisonous, shit filled, malignant ooze, which in the end, is good for nobody.

But before you go, hear this, you attacked someone that belongs to our community and community means a lot to us, bloggers, content creators, influencers, "triggered bitches", whatever you want to call us.  Do not think that because you're in your fortress of cyber solitude that you are safe, in the words of Liam Neeson, 'I will look for you, I will find you and I will kill you.' 

I'm totally kidding.  I will however, stand up for the people whom you attack, as will many others, I can assure you.  I might not be able to shut you down, but I will band together with my community to attempt to do some good, to balance out your shit shower, with support and positivity.

Whatever It is that motivates you to act like cataclysmic thunder c*nts, I urge you to rewire your thought processes.  Im not here to hate you or scream at you, I just want you to understand how irrevocably unacceptable your behaviour is and to perhaps give some thought to your actions. 

With all that said, I really do hope you find what you're looking for, through hard work, perseverance, kindness and just not being a dick, really.

Merry Christmas.

On Thursday afternoon, I decided to brave the Christmas crowds and head to the City centre for a gift buying sesh.  After a spot of Lunch and a quick wander around Sostrene Grenes with a blogger pal, we parted ways.  I thought I'd head straight for John Lewis, where I knew I could tick a lot of items off of my shopping list, all under one roof.  Of course I made a beeline straight for the beauty section, where I was immediately maced with some sort of horrific man spray, which would be "the perfect gift for the man in your life", apparently.  As I've mentioned before, I'm hella awkward in these kinds of situations, you know the ones, where all you need to say is 'No, thank you', so, instead, I took the cowards way out...and ran away.

After hiding for a few minutes and pretending to be engrossed in a skincare range I had never heard of, I slipped passed the horrendous cologne section, once again and headed towards my rose gold beacon of hope, my shiny sanctuary, the Charlotte Tilbury counter.  After browsing for a few minutes, with no intention to purchase, the most beautiful young woman, I had ever seen, in real life, asked me if I needed any help with anything? That was it, she sat me down, put a full face of beautiful makeup on me and just over £100 later, here we are! Ooops.  Why can't I ever just say no?!

I asked for a look that I could wear on Christmas day, incorporating a brown and gold shimmery smokey eye, I also wanted a flawless complexion and finally I needed a new scent, as the one I have currently, makes my boyfriend screw his nose up.

If, like me, you're a bit of a makeup novice, then these smaller palettes are just the ticket.  With four eyeshadows to prime, enhance, smoke and pop, you really cant go wrong.  However, if you think you might struggle, have perhaps been looking online (like I had) and it all feels a bit overwhelming, I'd suggest going to your local Charlotte Tilbury counter or store, as there are loads of options when it comes to these colour coded eyeshadows and the staff will be more than happy to show you how to apply them and once you know, you know! Its that simple.

The Lipsticks are beautiful and if you can say no to that packaging, then you have stronger will power than I! I wanted pillow talk, obviously, because I am a sheep, but that was out of stock, so I went for Very Victoria instead, which is apparently the next best thing.  So boys and girls, if you cant get Pillow Talk, then get Very Victoria, it really is beautiful.


I wanted a flawless complexion, so I went for the foundation that my Makeup artist was wearing, honestly, her skin was perfect, so clearly that tells you a lot about the products!  I mentioned in a previous post that I was loving YSL foundations, however, the amount they oxidise is just ridiculous.  I hadn't actually realised, until a recent photoshoot, where I was getting darker and darker throughout the day, that is why I say, always try before you buy! I explained that I didn't want a foundation which oxidised and that's exactly what I got.  Its a full coverage, demi-matte foundation, which is also long lasting.  It contains Hyaluronic acid, which keeps collagen synthesis up as well as helping the skin to retain moisture.  Basically, it contributes towards reducing the effects of ageing on the skin and boots collagen levels.  All very good, if you want to look youthful and at 29 years of age, I can use all the help I can get.  It also contains Laricyl, which is basically a mushroom extract, which tightens pores and with an added dose of concentrated vitamin C, this foundation is basically skin care and beauty in one, which is always a winner in my opinion.

Finally the perfume, Scent of a Dream.  To be honest, when I smelt this in the bottle, I wasn't a fan, but once its on my skin, it completely transforms and if you're looking for a scent that lasts all day, then Scent of a dream, is the fragrance for you.  Its best off giving this perfume another sniff after 15 minutes, because it completely transforms after its had time to settle.  Its a very floral scent, which I personally love, with notes of Lemon, Peach, black pepper, Saffron, Mandarin and Bergamot. I am a huge fan of anything with Lemon and Bergamot and as an added bonus, the bottle is beautiful and will look stunning on your dressing table.

Id be happy to receive any of these as a gift, so, if you're looking for presents for girlfriends, wives, or mothers, Id suggest you head for the Charlotte Tilbury counter.  They have gorgeous skincare and the rose gold packaging is to die for, their gift sets are stunning too and they have lovely gift boxes, for if you're not much of a wrapper.

If you do get your makeup done at Charlotte Tilbury before Christmas, be sure to ask your MUA to write down everything they have used to create your look.  I personally couldn't afford the £400 worth of products that went onto my face, so the list has now changed hands and I'll just have to see what is under the tree on Christmas day.  

If you're a loved one and you're reading this, any of the skincare would be much appreciated. wink wink, nudge nudge.

Have a super shiny weekend everyone.

As I write this post, the sound of the fire quietly crackling to itself and the faint snore of my little dog, Mia, who, every so often kicks me, as she dreams of her day is making me feel all cozy and snuggly.  To my right, our seven ft tall, ever so slightly skewed, Christmas tree is enthusiastically twinkling away and over in the corner, the Adventures of Tintin softly fills the remaining silence.  I've always been the type to have the television on in the background, more so for comfort than anything else, I suppose I got that from my dad.  As Tuesday evenings go, it's a pretty standard one.

I guess I've got a few things to fill you in on, for a start, my photos got better, huh!  A week or so ago, I decided to take the plunge and hire a photographer.  Ive been blogging since around 2013, but had never really taken it all that seriously, however, lately it's all I can think about.  I can't even get a coffee anymore, without carefully considering, which venue, will have the prettiest setting, the best light and the most visually appealing beverages, for me to snap for 'the gram'.  To be honest, its getting pretty out of hand, but I enjoy it and thats all that matters.  It's also a great outlet for me to express myself creatively, as since graduating (Fashion Communication and promotion) all of the work I used to enjoy has very much taken a back seat, to my boring old nine to five (which by the way, is slowly and quietly killing me) I love to style outfits, put together look books and take photos, but very obviously, I was struggling to get good photos of myself! Enter Rhys, an extremely patient photographer, who put up with me, for over an hour.  At first, I had no idea what I was doing or what I wanted, some of the binned photos are awkward AF and don't even get me started on the lipstick on my teeth! Did I mention I was also hungover and had only had 3 hours and 45 minutes sleep! Epic faux pas! 

I really felt like I learned a lot working with Rhys and I'm excited to work with him again.  I feel like I've got a handle on what to do now and hopefully Im passed the awkward, 'I don't know you and this is weird' stage.  Its also kind of scary trying to get those Instagram worthy photos, when you know you're socially awkward and not very 'cool', but all in all, I'm looking forward to shooting more content and I think next time I'll be better prepared (and 'ahem', not hungover/sleep deprived)



As I mentioned before, our Christmas tree is up now, (YAY) it's so large, like, obnoxiously large and ever so slightly on the wonk, but I love it and I even used the bits I trimmed off of the bottom to decorate the fire place, it looks so cute! I'm hoping to put together a lovely little Christmas post, with some photos of our decorations, so, watch this space!

Anyway, I really hope you love these photos as much as I do, if you know me well, you'll know that outfits like this one are essentially my uniform.  I'm excited to show you some of the new pieces I've been buying lately, speaking of which, I styled a lovely outfit today, which involves and crisp white shirt, a beautiful Balmain-esq blazer and a gorgeous red bag! 

I'd love to tell you that I'm off to London, for exciting meetings, or Jet setting off to Paris, but as it stands, currently, life is pretty unexciting, its certainly something Im working on though.  For now, the sound of Adams car pulling into the driveway, right this second, is more than enough excitement for me! 


The Base - Primer, Foundation, highlighting and concealing 

When it comes to finding your holy grail foundation, especially high end, my advice to you, would be to always try before you buy, wherever possible and especially if you're already investing your hard earned cash in some of the brands other products.  For example, I already knew that I wanted the Yves Saint Laurent Touche Eclat Blur Primer and Yves Saint Laurent Touche Eclat Complexion Highlighter, Limited Edition, but I'd also heard great things about two of their foundations.  The first being the YSL Teint Touche Eclat Foundation (new Formula) and the second being the YSL All Hours Foundation.

I couldn't decide which foundation I wanted, because they both have glowing reviews.  I didn't know which was right for my ever changing complexion and both of them might break me out, which is a problem I encounter all too often when trying new products, especially foundation.

I explained my issues to the lovely lady at the YSL Counter in the John Lewis, Nottingham store and she was more than happy to help.  She sat me down and we had a lovely little chat, I bitched about the state of my skin for 10 minutes and she colour matched me, which was a hell of a chore, because I am fussy AF.  She was more than happy to pour out two little samples of each foundation for me, to see which I preferred, turns out I love both, so ill be going back, once the samples are empty of course, to purchase both of these foundations.

The Teint Touche Eclat Foundation is perfect for a lighter, day time finish and the All Hours Foundation for a more high coverage, evening foundation, perfect for the office Christmas party, you might lose your dignity, but your makeup will look bangin all night long.

My thoughts on both foundations

When I first applied the Teint Touche Eclat Foundation, I was blown away and found myself oohing and ahhing, literally! I was sat at my mirror, like a total plonker giving my dog a full and detailed review.  In all honesty though, this foundation goes on like an absolute dream, a little really does go a long way with this product.  Previously I had been using the Estee Lauder Double wear foundation, but after almost 10 years, I was finally over it, its okay for younger skin, but it clings to fine lines and dry patches so badly, it honestly makes my under eyes look crusty, the YSL foundation does not do this, in fact, it makes me look five years younger, it feels like water and my skin, still feels like MY skin after application, just a lot more even and positively glowing!  It doesn't sit in fine lines and it doesn't crease (hallelujah!)  I'll add that I'm feeling somewhat salty towards Estee Lauder, as when I explained the problems I was having with the product, the woman on the counter insisted that it does NOT dry out under eyes, nor does it sit in fine lines and the problem was my skin and how dehydrated it was!  I have not invested, time, money and water into my skin, to be told its "dehydrated" I came for foundation, not insults, sweetheart, bah bye! 

Much the same as the Teint Touche Eclat foundation, the All hours foundation had me shooketh to the core (Oh jesus, she's at it again, using vocabulary, designed for youths) its pretty similar, although this one is higher coverage and did a better job, at covering blemishes.  Id highly recommend both foundations though, depending on the level of coverage you're after.

Tanya Burr Highlighter

Ive been through a few of the more expensive highlighters in my time and whilst I loved them, I found it very difficult to justify spending my cash on some of the eye-wateringly expensive ones on offer.  So when I heard great things about Tanya Burrs Chasing the Sun Champagne Illuminating powder I knew I had to give it a go, that and I was skint and needed a replacement, for under £10.

I wasn't at all disappointed with this highlighter, the glow can be as intense or as subtle as you like.  
The finish isn't powdery and gives a beautiful glowy sheen, I honestly can't tell the difference between this and some of the high end illuminating powders.  The only real difference would be the packaging, which is a bit crappy and made of plastic, the design on the front has pretty much worn off now, but to be honest, I didn't expect 'By-Terry' quality packaging for such a low price point.

L'Oreal Paris False Lash Sculpt mascara

I've said it before and I'll say it again, the L'Oreal Paris False Lash sculpt Mascara, is, in my opinion, the best mascara available on the high street.  Previously, I would have said Benefit, 'They're real' mascara, but this is better and half the price!  If you're looking for a really good volumising and sculpting mascara, for around £10, I'd seriously consider this one.

The Palette that has seen better days

Introducing the most pathetic, worn out and downright disgusting eyeshadow palette to ever grace a blog, I am truly embarrassed, but its the only one I own! I know, I know, am I even a real blogger?!  I only own one palette, as generally, I'm a neutral shades, kind of girl, however, recently I've been really into playing around with some different looks!  I promise I'll take the plunge and buy myself some beautiful new eyeshadow palettes, but which ones!! Let me know your favourites in the comments below!  

To create my wintery smokey eye,  I used this rather sad Makeup Revolution Palette.  Starting with a burnt orange in my crease, for the transition shade, a dark brown in the outer corners and just a smidgen of burgundy in the middle of my eyelid.  I then added some of the Tanya Burr Highlighter to the inner corner of my eyes and to my brow bone, using my ring finger.

L'Oreal Paris Lipstick

Finally I finished off the look with a choice of two L'oreal Paris Lipsticks, the first being an easy to wear shade, which I had to include, because I love it and the second shade I like to call my 'wearable red'.

The shade I would opt for if I was going for an everyday look would be this L'Oreal Paris Color Riche lipstick in shade 302, Bois de rose.  For something a bit more statement, I nearly always reach for my Color Riche Matte in shade 349, Paris Cherry.

Im a huge fan of L'Oreal Lipsticks, I own far too many of them, except for the Balmain collaboration, which I've been struggling to get hold of in store, I did have one, but I lost it about two days after I purchased it, gutted!

The finished look

For anyone who follows me on 'the gram' you may have noticed that I've had a slight shift in gears in terms of 'theme'.  When I first started Blogging, 'Instagraming' and all that other jazz, I was told that to get ahead, 'you MUST post everyday' and 'you MUST constantly upload' etc etc...  So I went ahead and did that, often rushing to get content up for a certain time of day, even if I had absolutely nothing to write about and often I wasn't happy with the finished product.

The event that turned things around

I recently attended a blogger event, which essentially involved sitting around a beautifully decorated table, having brunch and networking, with other bloggers, photographers and like minded individuals.  As the event was nearing its end, the phones came out and it was time to connect digitally, as I added new connections to twitter, Instagram and Youtube, I couldn't help but feel a pang of jealousy, my Instagram feed did NOT look like theirs, in fact, it looked crap and they knew it, hell even I knew it! Individually, my photos weren't awful, but together as a feed, they were a mess and I wasn't proud to share my work with other people.  I wasn't disheartened though, I knew I wasn't producing good content.  I wasn't trying my best and I was rushing to get things out there, because shitty content is better than no content at all, right? Wrong.

After the event I rushed home, excited to create some really good content, something which I hadn't felt for a while.  And so the research phase began, I trawled through probably hundreds of blogs and Instagram feeds, critiquing as I scrolled.  What did I want? What didn't I want? What was I looking for? I watched Photoshop tutorials, hours upon hours of Photoshop tutorials.  I dug out the day lamps, from under my bed and researched about lighting and photography, hell I even looked up a list of Synonyms to improve my written content.

Positive transformations take time

Now i'm not saying the content i'm producing now is anywhere near the standard I want it to be, but its much better.  Previously I was editing all of my images for my blog on my phone and sending them to my blog ready for upload, the problem with this technique is that they lose their resolution and so the quality is affected.  My previous post was edited using adobe software, it took a lot longer, but my photos are crisp, clear and much better quality.

Because I take my photos myself, its really difficult to get those beautiful outfit shots with a shallow depth of field (blurred background) so I always shoot against a white wall and edit the background in photoshop, which is fine, for now, but not exactly what I want, so today I took the plunge and emailed a photographer about getting some professional shots done, which Im super excited about.  I'm hoping to use a photographer at least a couple of times each month, an expense that I am willing to spare, because this blog is important to me and I want it to be the best it can possibly be!

How I edit my photos for Instagram

Have fun!

The fun part about blogging, is the ability to learn and progress, which is what I'm currently working on, nothing is perfect and everything can be improved.  Never feel like you have to compete.  Blogging is supposed to be fun, after all.  Make sure you're excited about what you're posting and if you're not, don't post it, work on it and make it the best it can possibly be.

I hope these tips were a little bit helpful, if you have any other questions, please feel free to comment below, if you want to check out my Instagram feed, here is the link, I have left the old photos on there, for now, so you can see the difference.

Have the words, 'I'm too fat to wear those' ever come out of your mouth? Because they come pouring from my pie hole on the daily.  I put myself down so many times per day, that its almost become second nature, to the point, where most of the time, I don't even realise Im doing it.  Its never a 'oh, feel sorry for me' put down, its nearly always for comedy value.  Often people laugh, I want them to laugh, after all, but sometimes people look concerned and maybe a little bit heartbroken that I'm so nasty about myself.

Ive just accepted that this is who I am and whilst, I'll always put myself down for the purpose of getting a laugh, I've been really trying lately to be kinder to me.  I often get put down, by family members and friends, most of the time its either passive aggression, or they don't even realise they're doing it, but its still really fucking hurtful.  So why is it less hurtful when I abuse myself so horrendously? I often think perhaps I'm punishing myself for something? Maybe for liking food a bit too much and not liking exercise enough.  Maybe its because I don't look like most of the really successful bloggers or YouTubers? Who knows, all I know is, it has to stop, i'm damaging my own self esteem and as I said before, I've got enough people in my life served with the purpose of making me feel shitty about myself, I don't need to add to that by being my own worst enemy.

J'adore Tee: Boohoo

'Mom Jeans' were not on my radar, until recently,  I always thought that anything that high waisted would look like a pair of pregnancy pants for the over 40s on me, not to mention the fact that they have absolutely no give, what-so-ever! If you own a pair of 'Mom Jeans' and are a curvy girl, like me, you'll understand the struggle, of being a size 12 in TOPSHOP Jamie jeans and suddenly jumping to a cool size 16 in Mom jeans! What the fuck is that about?!

There are three 'Influencers' who inspire my style choices...

Lydia Elise Millen:

But out of my three favourite women on the internet, one will always have my back in terms of the right fit and that is Alix, who is approximately the same shape and build as me and I couldn't be prouder of that fact, because she is 'goals' (I think I might be too old to be using terms like 'goals', but stay with me guys #clingingtomyyouth) Anything she buys, generally, I'll buy, because I know that it will not only fit me, but it will look good (Not great though, lets not go crazy, don't forget, i'm still a fully affirmed self saboteur)

Blazer: ASOS
Farleigh Jeans: ASOS

Introducing the ASOS Farleigh Jeans, a mom jean, like no other (actually they're probably like every other mom jeans, you still have to size up TWICE) Alix has mentioned a few times, her love for these jeans and I always thought that they looked incredible on her, but I just didn't have the confidence to pull them off - queue, the absolutely shit selection of clothing on ASOS, at the moment and my shameful shopping addiction.  The Farleigh Jeans had been sat in my saved items for too long, I wanted something different and I knew I could simply return them, feeling a little bit worse about myself for ten minutes, until comforted by cake, at which point, Id get over it and move on with my life.

The next day they arrived, I ripped open the packaging and popped them on...They looked good, win! And, better still, they didn't look like pregnancy pants!

Yes, before you ask, someone has patted my tummy and asked when i'm due before and yes, the person in question is dead now. 

(Obviously i'm kidding, the remains of the nasty battleaxe, are not buried in my back garden, I'm sure she's very much alive, the cow)

Bag: Accessorize 

So if ever you feel like you cant wear something because you're not 'skinny enough' or you're not the 'right shape', take that thought or feeling and say 'fuck you, buddy' Im wearing the mom jeans and not only am I wearing them, I'm going to do so, whilst continuing to be the absolute queen I am.

Seriously guys, I'm the worst for it, but please, stop putting yourself down, the only person you're hurting is yourself.  And to quote Mark Darcy - 'I like you very much, just as you are'

(Except for that old woman who thought I was pregnant, that one time, I don't like you, you are the worst)
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